Eyes and Ears and Mouth and Nose.

For quite a long time now, i've been doubting how well i listen to God. After speaking to a lot of friends, I now know that I'm not in the same boat on that either!

My biggest thing was the whole supernatural experience... something that everyone talks about, but i had never really experienced for myself! Everyone always speaks of how they've seen visions, dreamed dreams, supernatural healing, being able to speak in another language that they themselves dont even know - the list just goes on!!

I thought, "maybe i'm just too afraid," or "maybe my faith is just not strong enough" or even "maybe it's not real?!"

A few sundays ago, my heart just broke.

It was the end of a very powerful sermon, and without really being able to describe to you why, I just knew at that moment i had to be down at the mercy seat to pray.
I couldn't stop crying. This overwhelming guilt, undescribable weight in my chest, this pounding in my head, it was all just too much! My tears poured out over the clean white mercy seat - leaving stains of black from my running mascara. I was in an absolute mess!

And as i prayed. I prayed to God, saying "I need you so much. I've had enough of what this world keeps dishing up, please just come and make it a little more bearable"
And as my eyes were closed, and my head resting on my arms in absolute defeat, I saw them - Lips.

Now dont get me wrong, there was nothing romantic about these lips at all. But they were coming in for a kiss... on my forehead. Instantly the lines of a Delirious song came to my head, "you come and burn me with a kiss"

I believe the Lord burnt me with his kiss that day. and ever since I just keep seeing him working in and around me. It wasn't scary to me at all, it made sense to me. In fact, it made me realise that it wasn't at all the first time he's spoken to me in that way!

The thing that just astounds me is that God doesn't always give us the answer we want. He doesn't do what we expect Him to do. I like being vulnerable to Him. He never lets me down, and He always surprises me.

And when i thought i wasn't hearing from Him at all, I actually was... and had in fact been hearing from Him for quite sometime... It was just that it wasn't in the way that I thought it should be.

So let me encourage you, stick with God (aka the Big Man).  He knows what he's doing. And he loves you so so SO much! It's not always obvious, us humans have a habit of not quite getting it sometimes. But God is always there.

Peace xo

Call & Response

On the 23rd November, 2009... My church will be hosting a special screening of "Call & Response".

Be at 16 Rushwood Drive, Craigieburn for 7.30pm, with your $6 for entry...

It's time we take a stand against injustice!

check out www.callandresponse.com for more information about the film itself.

How Great Is Our God!!!

so my little sister became a Salvation Army Soldier yesterday. pretty cool huh?

made me think back to my enrolment at the beginning of this year. wow. so much has happened in my life since then - some good stuff, some bad.

i was thinking back to when i got enrolled as a soldier -  both my mum and my sister were not present.

At that time, my sister was going through depression. The day of my enrolment, she was admitted to hospital as she had attempted to take her own life (three times in total within about a month).

Now she is loving Jesus, and living for Him. Thanking him for the new LIFE he has given her.

Wow.

The change in her alone is incredible.

And you know what? he's doing it in others' lives aswell!!! God has the power to turn our lives around! And it's an incredible feeling to see so many people HAPPY...and LOVING Jesus!

At our church... we've had around 18 people (at least) give their hearts to the Lord for the first time. It's so exciting! and people are actually grasping on to the vision for our church too!

May i be clear though, this stuff doesn't come without a fight. Jesus said that this would never be easy... and it's not. Christianity isn't easy. Fighting for Jesus isn't easy.

But wow, it is well worth it!


Blessings!

GO FOR SOULS 2009!

well, well, well. (Three holes in the ground)

Go For Souls was this weekend! and MY GOODNESS, it was FANTASTIC!

God did some great things this weekend (he always does great things).
People were healed. People gave their hearts to Jesus for the very first time. Even better, we saw some people come in to our church on Sunday because of the evangelism efforts on Saturday.

WOW!

Praise God for all He is has done, and all He is going to do!